Ok this is going to turn into a ramble as I know that an objective view of my thoughts is easier when analysed chronologically and defined by words & not simply feelings.
The project is going well, as is money, no major arguments with friends or family, I’m happy to the extent I am not physically sick and if I had someone who really cared I bet they would say that I am not doing so badly at all.
On the other hand I drink too much and don’t really trust anyone that much, I feel guilty about drinking and I wish I could find someone to swap real feelings with.
This will get some editing and I’ll leave it here to dwell on later
